Some Features that i really like..
Each of which hold a meaning to me when i view them.
Well its been a really long time since I last made a journal, and I thought it was time for a new one.. And I've felt like I been neglecting my DA page here for a while now, with how little I been active here as of late..
Soo.. I made some features, and as well you can read the rest of this journal get to know my better.. My furry side of me...
I got this from
although im not a baby fur or anything, im just a fur in general and can still answer all but one...
So here goes..
What's your fur name and how did you come up with it?
My fur name in full form is Jason Nicholas Bear, but in short I just always use Jason Bear or Jason.
I cam up with it cause my middle name is Jason and my first name, Cole. is derived from the Nicholas and of course my fursona is a bear
What's your favorite color?
My fave color is dark Blue, but I also really like dark Reds and black.. although i really like all dark colors as well
What was your favorite subject in school?
My two fave subjects in school was Art first and Electronics
What kind of music are you into?
Well im not really into anything in particular, but i love everything from rock,pop, new age, classical, techno\trance, ambient\instrumental and alot more
However I tend to lean towards ambient\instrumental and 80s rock\pop
How did you get into the furry fandom?
Well always was a furry you could say ever since i was a kid, even though at the time I didnt know what the fandom was then or what even being a furry way back then was.. But but i got aware of it and into the fandom around 2005 but had not became active in it till around 2010
How did you choose your fursona?
Mostly cause of my love of bears, but growing up i had alot of nicknames that were associated with bears, like Grumpy bear, teddy, growly bear.. etc.. As well one of my favorite cartoons TaleSpin had an influence as well, and as some may know my fursona does have a lot of similarities to Kit CloudKicker
What was the first age you remember liking diapers?
Not being a babyfur, this question dont apply to me and cant answer.. However i can say that, as i was told i had the tendency to always try to take my diaper off as a kid and run around the house nakie..
What do you do for fun?
For fun I do a number of things, and one could say Im a bear of simple pleasures.. I love outdoors and being outside and love to just watch the skies and the stars and especially the Northern Lights when i have the chance to catch them, and its not to cold a night. I also very much enjoy just watching animals as well going to the lake and watching the water and the waves. The sound of water puts me very much at ease..
I dont really like sports much at all, but i do however have an interest in automotive racing type sports, and i particularly love to watch rally racing when i get the chance..
I also really like photography and like to go for walks and such and take photos and stuff..
What are some things that make you really happy?
First and foremost my friends are what really make me happy, as they are the ones that truly seem to understand me. Also doing heartfelt things for those i really care about and knowing its well appreciated also really makes me happy and makes me feel like im cared for, and being able to just be myself and letting my goofy playful and calm side out also makes me really happy
What are some things that make you really sad?
There are a lot of things that make me sad, in fact i cant even begin to say them all hear as i would probably end up writing a novel. but i can say that seeing other, especially my friends and others of whom i care a lot about sad or hurting.. Seeing others in just general bad situations makes me sad as well.. but there are a lot more things in my life that make me sad as well.
What are some things that scare you?
I dont really have to many physical fears, but i do however have a lot of mental and emotional fears like becoming my father for example
Do you like to plan things out in detail or be spontaneous?
A bit of both depending on the situation.. some things i really plan out in detail, and cant think strait while doing it if i dont have it planed out.. while other things im very random and spontaneous and sometimes confuse people with my randomness sometimes..
What was your life like growing up?
this will probly be a bit long.. but here goes
My life growing up was a rather traumatic experience for me, and pushed me to develop a lot of physiological issues as well some physical..
Growing up my father was extremely abusive, and when i was about 5 years old, I fell off the top of a grain bin trying to hide from him during a drunken rage of his and suffer severe brain trauma. All of which led to me being in a coma for a couple moths the spending most of my early childhood years till i was almost 7 years old in hospital and in recovery till about the age of 9 around the age of 9, i wanted badly to go to normal school as up untill then i was home schooled, cause i wanted to feel like a normal kid and make freinds. However it did not go as i though it would and because at the time my speech was still a little off for my age and my sense of coordination was off as well i got really teased a lot, however i did make one friend, Megan and she became one of the best friends i had ever had. but half way through my first year in normal school things went down hil for me when a few older kids grabbed me in the locker room, took my pants and tied me to the flag pole in fron of the school pretty much naked except for my t-shirt minutes before the school bell rang and the whole school came out, leading to me attempting suicide and leading to my long history of suicide attempts and stays in mental facilities. Also growing up I also got sexually abused and molested by my father from the time i was about 5 till i was about 10 as well, which added to much of my issues... my first of two times being in a mental facility happened when i was about 11..12 years old, and i was rather forced to go to the place and spent over a year in the place, almost 2 and half of that time i spent it completely emotionless. after getting out thereg got somewhat normal till i got involed in gang related stuff trying to fit in which got me in trouble with he law and getting a juvenile record and then latter on my family moved again for the.. 5th time and things got somewhat more normal but my father remained abusive towards me, my brother and my mom till this day..
Hope i not bore everyone with that little life story..
Will you ever grow up or always be young at mind?
I have grown up as a person, however i will always remain young at heart and forever be like a big kid.. mostly cause of being deprived of being one, and being able to be one when i was one..
Who in your life has influenced you the most? How did they do it?
I can say my mom being one, as if not for her constantly pushing me to do my best it keep trying i would not had recovered as well and as fast as i did.. My friend Megan who was always there for me no matter what others though of me or of her for being my friend.. and as well two of my best friends in the world have influenced me a lot in the last few years and yous know who you are..
What embarrasses you?
Im actually really not sure, there are a few things but it really comes down to my mood, and how its said..
Who's your best / closest friend?
Growing up and up till only a few years ago it was Megan.. she was my closes friend since i was 9 years old up untill a year ago when we lost touch after she moved. she knew everything about me, even my furry side, in fact i think she knew me better than i knew myself, and she never judged me once..
Now however it would be two people that i have met through the furry fandom that have came to be my best and closest friends, both of which live nearly, or more than 2000 miles from me i want to see more an anything in the world..
Are you an introvert or an extrovert?
Im an introvert.. i love to be around others, epecially those i care for.. but i also very much need alone time and have a strong need to be able to reflect on my thoughts and emotions, and while i can tolerate... i dont like large crowds of people... but thats not to say i dont like to be around people as i very much like to be..
Are you proud to be who you are and do you have any regrets?
For the most part, yes i am..